17 and pregnant.

Dear Mavanmi, Nan and Siskaa.
Thank you for your lovely comments.
Last night we told my parents. They already had a suspicion because I wasn't taking the pill properly and of course nausea etc. They weren't angry and not disappointed either. Which is what I had actually expected. And I'm so happy, I tell you. We talked for a long time. As they say, 'you were there yourself, girl, you are responsible yourself.' So I take that responsibility and I'm keeping the baby. And I will raise it with all my love. But my studies are important too, and I'm just going to finish them! Only now the next point. My mother-in-law reacted much more intensely. She just says get rid of it because we can't handle that now. BAM! She's tough, I tell you. Luckily I have loving parents who say; it's your body Irene. A little one is growing in YOUR belly! They can't force you. Now I hope my boyfriend has the guts and that he can prove that he's going for me and the baby. I find it very nerve-wracking. But that's his choice. It's naturally super difficult for him. He's doing his master's and has to think about the rest too. Your own family says no. And your in-laws say yes. I'm glad I'm not in his shoes. But I will support him as much as I can. And I hope he makes a good decision. That we can give our child a stable situation together. And that the child may be happy and raised with love! I'm going for it!

Hey Ireen. Your homie and good friend here. Know that I've always been proud of you and even though we don't talk much, I'm always here for you. We at home are always ready for you. Together we'll get through this, no matter what. You know you never have to do this alone because we know our God will always take care of you and your little baby. Kiss the little one.

Good afternoon, dear people!
Another update here.
My boyfriend has chosen so far not to continue with me. He doesn't want to become a father at this moment. He wants me to have the 'crumb' aborted. And I'm not going to do that. That means our paths are separating. I've told him he needs to take time to process this. He shouldn't make a choice too quickly. That's too hasty. It still hurts me that he already thinks this way. And that I'll soon be a single mother. A little explanation about 'the partnership': the partnership is a business where multiple people are bosses. My boyfriend is a farmer. And he has 2 brothers with whom he is in the partnership. So the 3 farms belong to all three of them.

I hope everything turns out okay,
Thanks for your support!

Love,

Good evening ladies..

Yesterday I had terrible stomach pain.. Tears with every cramp in my belly.
Didn't sleep last night because of the pain. Exactly the same today. Aspirin didn't help. And neither did 2 . This morning when I was on the toilet, the blood started flowing.. And what pain I had. Now apparently I'm on my period... Every hour I'm on the toilet to change. I've never had this before.
Tomorrow I'm going to the doctor to take another test.
I enjoyed a nice walk with my boyfriend today and had a good chat.
If I'm still pregnant, he won't leave me. But we'll face it TOGETHER. How nice that is. He didn't really want me to be pregnant. But to leave me alone with a child, he couldn't bring himself to do that. It definitely won't be easy. In the end, everything will be fine.
I hope I'm still pregnant. That might sound weird, but in my head I'm already so much further ahead. You naturally start picturing things... Your thoughts are constantly there. Somewhere it would also be nice not to be pregnant. Then I could finish my studies calmly, etc. It's so hard sometimes...
If I'm still pregnant, the baby is very welcome in our (family). My (foster) parents already say, "Then we're grandparents again." That sounds good. He/she will be received with open arms and will receive lots of love from the first second. But first, we'll wait until tomorrow... I hope I can sleep...