Pregnant after miscarriage

I also had a miscarriage in June here, I was just under 12 weeks pregnant . I had constant bleeding those weeks leading up to it, we were at the gynecologist every week. Every time that fright with the bleeding, and every time the ultrasound was good, the baby was growing and the heart was beating (it was all quite small though), and that last ultrasound which was supposed to let us go on holiday with a peaceful heart, showed that the heart had stopped beating, it was a clot, I couldn't pass it myself, I had to undergo a D&C. Now 7 weeks pregnant, first I was terrified, had the 6-week ultrasound, everything looked better said the gyn, and I already saw the heart beating . Next week I have to go back, but that fear just comes back, terrified that the heart has stopped beating again . I already have a daughter, I would have liked to take her with me, and I'm starting to doubt, I don't dare anymore . That carefree feeling is completely gone, I find it very sad.
Hope that if the ultrasound is good now, we can enjoy it more.
Also, what I feel now is completely different than last time!

@chantiee, I’ve been able to process it, but my cycle still hasn’t started.. Had blood taken at the beginning of the week and there’s still no sign of ovulation.. So we’ll have to wait at least another month before we can start again..

@vicky, the fact that the gynecologist now says everything looks much better should be kept in mind . They wouldn’t say that if they thought there was a risk of things going wrong, I think the gynecologist has a good feeling about it. And congratulations again!