Dani has been admitted to the hospital.

Hey girls,
That's really sweet of you, but just enjoy being at home with your girl!!
I can't do anything but take it easy, I lie diagonally across from the counter, and when they see me coming out of the room, they wave me back.

And I really don't do that, I can be stubborn but I absolutely take responsibility for our baby.
I'm well taken care of here and of course it's annoying sometimes but this is good for something somewhere.
Got tissues from my mom for the tears and it's actually nice to let them out.
And my little guy has been here for 3 hours again and we had a lot of laughs together.

So nice to really do this together, no matter how difficult it is.

Lots of hard contractions during the scan today, uk was hard to follow when I had to lie on my side, she was rolling around a lot and I thought figure it out with your scan.

The nurse sat next to me for a quarter of an hour before she could finish the scan.
My belly feels very tight again, sometimes a numb feeling and that's the same feeling as before I lost my amniotic fluid.

My dad thinks something will happen on Tuesday, the future dad is going out for Christmas Day? We'll see and I hope both gentlemen are wrong and that Otje just takes a big hit in the mailing and stays in the private incubator for a long time!!!

If I have time in my very busy schedule in the coming days I'll keep you updated of course

Kind regards Dani

Hi Gerda,

Thank you so much!!
Is everything okay with the beautiful little one and with you?

Hi there,

Thanks again for the messages.
How am I feeling? Actually pretty good, just not thinking about the fact that it might take a few more weeks at the earliest before the little one arrives.
Good for the baby, but my goodness, I miss home (and my brand-new husband) so much.

I was away from work for 17 days a few years ago, but I never missed anyone as much as I do him.
He’s not coming tomorrow; he has to do a few things at home, and I told him he needs a little rest too. He’s been running around everywhere since Thursday, barely at home, and the baby’s room still needs to be finished.

So my parents are coming tomorrow evening so that he can stay home (I did tell him he should, but honestly, I regret it a bit).
But well, this too shall pass, so just bite the bullet!!!!!

Don’t think too much ahead, or I’ll go crazy, and then I’d have to go to another department.

As for my situation, no changes, so everything is going well.
"Brooding", eating, drinking, sleeping, visitors, reading, using the laptop, and then starting all over again.

And my bottom sometimes hurts so much............all this lying in bed, I have to be really tough or sit upright or lie completely flat, otherwise......apply plenty of cream, I’ve never had hemorrhoids before!!!

Kind regards, Dani

Hi everyone,

Well, things are definitely cheered up a bit thanks to a neighbor.
Funny enough, my first neighbor was a GP, this one is a midwife and she explained to me in great detail what priming is.

Very likely I'll be primed/induced on 1-1-13 if the baby doesn't decide to come earlier.
So instead of at 38 weeks, it'll be at 37 weeks.
I don't have a definite answer yet, there was a meeting this afternoon about all the pregnant women.

And I think the pediatrician has been left in the lurch, he hasn't been here yet either.

Otherwise, I'm going to take a sleeping pill tonight, haven't slept at all again and I'm getting tired of it, the 8th night in a row so bad.
A sleeping pill can't hurt the baby so I'll try it once, maybe I can sleep for longer than max 3 quarters in a row.

Otherwise nothing special........very quiet here........another day gone and now I'm counting down to 1-1-13, 3 weeks minus 1 day = 20 days right? Wow, that doesn't sound like much anymore!!!!

Kind regards Dani

The little man is back home, saying goodbye is getting harder and harder, and then knowing it could just take 4/5 weeks... pfffff.
I didn't want him to see my tears, but he hadn't even left the room before they came...


The neighbor lady is getting strong sleeping medication and is going to sleep in another room, so I can have one night of quiet time alone.
Chatting is nice, but I realize I miss not being able to just do my own thing.
I'm so incredibly glad not to be in a 4-bed ward!!!


Just freshened up, put on my pajamas, took my pill, and let's see what the night brings



P.S. The gynecologist came by tonight to tell me that the pediatrician will really come by tomorrow, to be continued...

I think I’ve already used up all my maternity leave tears... This just shows that rest isn’t just about your body, but also your mind.
It’s okay, there might be more tension once the little one is here, and if these tensions are already cried out, then there’s more room.

Rarara, no pediatrician yet!!!! Got apologies from the trainee doctors, nobody knew which doctor would actually come by this afternoon.
He/she is really coming tomorrow!!!!

Spent an hour and 20 minutes lying down for the scan this morning.
The little one showed a nice registration for the first half hour, after that it was enough and started splashing around in my belly, registration gone.
I was so fed up, thought just 5 more minutes but the nurse luckily came to rescue us.
My belly hurt so much.

Now I also have pain in my right groin, maybe from the baby dropping or something? I’ll mention it tomorrow.

I didn’t use a sleeping pill yesterday, I didn’t dare to, went looking up temazepam and it was advised against online anyway.
Now I know that the gynecologist doesn’t just prescribe anything, but as long as it’s not really necessary (and I didn’t think so either), then without it’s fine.

Induction on 01-01 is set, I asked for it because the doctor thought I already knew for sure.
They do forget things here sometimes......

Kind regards, Dani

It’s not that bad, honestly, but unfortunately I feel even worse than yesterday.

I’m so angry—those doctors can really cause a rambam (chaos).

This morning, a nurse already called the pediatricians at 9 AM. It was noted that someone should come to see me, but no one has been here yet.
They were supposed to do an ultrasound, but that hasn’t happened either.

They’re just looking at things, I’m not asking for anything, I don’t have the energy right now.

No, then there’s my aunt, such a lovely person, she’s a midwife herself, works here, has terrible pain, and I’m really not jealous of that.
But the doctors, neurologists, prescription writers, and who knows what else keep rushing in... My friend is also a doctor, has connections, and at 11:30 PM last night, she was still taken for an MRI.
She feels much better already, and I really felt bad for her, but what I mean is, they run around for her.

I “don’t have any complaints,” everything is going its own way, and that’s how you see that it’s so medically focused.
It probably doesn’t matter to a doctor that I’ve been here for 9 days, uncertain about the baby in my womb who is sick, and I’ve made that clear. It’s all just for the statistics, “the woman is having a hard time psychologically?” Psychiatric intake, easy peasy.
Of course, I don’t do that—it would be so much easier if you just got an explanation, which they themselves offer.

Well, you’re reading it, I’m quite angry and sad!
I don’t see the point right now, but it’ll probably be okay again.
And to top it all off, my husband isn’t coming tonight (he’s picking up his son at my request). Luckily, a friend with her husband is coming.