If getting pregnant takes longer, looking for support groups

Hi mamas. I'm a 34-year-old mom with 3 beautiful kids: two are almost 9 and one is almost 11. And now... there's a wish to become parents together with my current partner. My 3 kids are from a previous marriage. My boyfriend and I have been trying to get pregnant for 2 years now but unfortunately... half a year of Clomid didn't work so we're starting the next step. Pregonin and Pregnyl injections. The next step is IVF. Unfortunately, I do have a medical history. My first pregnancy came spontaneously after 1.5 years. During that year and a half I had a very irregular cycle of 25 to even 90 days. So it was a miracle to call it. The twins came after the 1st round of Clomid. After that I got pregnant spontaneously twice. Both times an ectopic pregnancy in the right fallopian tube. So now I only have the left fallopian tube left. A few years ago I had a miscarriage. After that I never got pregnant again. I do still get ovulation even though my cycle is getting longer and longer even with Clomid now. Right now I'm between 28 and 37 days with and without Clomid. I'm becoming hopeless about it, feeling like a failure. I really want my boyfriend to also feel what it's like to be a dad. What if that never happens. And also the tension about starting the injections tomorrow. The gynecologist mentioned a laparoscopy to see if there are any damages to the left fallopian tube. Earlier a photo was taken where fluid was injected into the fallopian tube. It is open normally so that's not the problem either. And then the question, shouldn't we just start with IVF? My gut gives me such a sign that it won't work this way... Is it fear? Or is it a sign from my body itself. It's become a long story but I'm curious if there's a group I can talk to. Or people who have gone through the same thing and it still worked out for them.