Friend is pregnant

Dear...

I'm making an account here because I need to get this off my chest. (Man)

To start, I'm a 28-year-old guy who already has two little boys... beautiful boys... I broke up with their mother a year ago.
Then I met my girlfriend (who also has a 2-year-old son). Soon she moved in, which I didn't want at first, but after some pushing, it happened quickly... When she moved in, she had an IUD inserted. Months later, I came home and saw a pregnancy test in her bag. I didn't have time to see which brand it was... She flew off the handle and told me she had removed her IUD a while back without my knowledge, and that this was a test for when we could have sex again... I believed her, so I didn't press it... I was disappointed and found it weird that she had the IUD removed behind my back... She mentioned the pill then... At first, her alarm on her phone went off every evening, but soon I stopped hearing it... But that comes out later; at the moment, you just don't process it... A week later, she was at the table video-calling her friend... I had my back to her, and when I turned around, she was making signs toward her belly... I asked what was going on, and she told me she was bloated from all the chips, etc... A day later, I got an SMS saying she needed to talk... I had told her during our relationship that I didn't want any more kids, and what do you know, she's pregnant... I can tell you our situation is far from normal. We're already struggling to make ends meet, etc... It's tough times right now... Our relationship wasn't going well either, and I had thought about breaking up a few times, but every argument ended with her threatening to harm herself... She'd get in her car and send me "Don't forget I love you, but I'm going to end it all," etc., etc... Every discussion brings this up again...

I'm really at my wit's end....

I don't want a new baby.

Neither mentally nor financially do we have anything for it... We're already struggling to make ends meet, etc.... I tell her it's better to have the baby aborted, but now I'm a murderer, etc., and if she has to do it because of me, she'll commit suicide...

Sorry to bother you with this, but I had to get it out.